The weirdest thing happened to me yesterday

Somebody I used to be really good friends with was at the supermarket I work at, training for the new store. We haven't talked in two years and she was there and she was nice and we talked and it was like nothing happened. I'm worried because I don't want to trust her and then be screwed over again like the last time.

Sophie suggested that we talk everything through and I think that would help. I feel like the first step towards healing our friendship is to get all of the negativity out first.

What my tumblr looked like

I was a photography blogger.

I really want macarons

I have wanted to try them for a very long time now but no one knows what they are or won't bake them for me. There's always buying them online but I want to try one before I spend so much money for them.

Aren't they just amazing looking?

Is it December yet?

It seems like once Halloween is over, everyone skips right over to Christmas and while it makes me practically giddy with excitement thinking about December, it also makes me sad because November exists and people seem to forget that. My neighborhood was smart and they didn't decorate at all for Christmas until today, the day after Thanksgiving.

Thanksgiving was really nice, I went with my mom to my aunt Barb's house and there were probably around 15 of us all together and we ate and ate, and watched TV after dinner, and talked. At first I felt my energy being drained the second we pulled into the driveway but to my surprise I didn't feel out of place there. All of my aunt's friends are really quirky and amazing so I felt like I could be myself and not chameleon. I didn't want to leave last night but of course it was dark and we needed to leave.

Here are some pictures.

That was the table setup, it was cute and I loved the plates and the little apple pilgrims or Indians on top of them.

That's all of the delicious food. I loved the setup, it was all cutsey and fancy. My favorite thing was the 

stuffing and the cinnamon bread.

All of the delicious deserts. I had a small slice of the pumpkin walnut cake, and the chocolate chip cheese cake(it was really a pie). I tried a small forkful of the chocolate peanut butter cake, which of course was amazing. I didn't try the pineapple one though but apparently everyone loved it.

where to find me

If you're interested, which I know you're not.. But if you are this is where else you can find me.

Listography
Personality cafe I'm badgers
That's it for the moment. I did once have a tumblr and twitter but no more.

I want to make a new tumblr, but it makes me sad because I loved my old one. I had 1700+ followers and I had great friends on there, so now if I made one I would be so disappointed because I wouldn't have nearly as many followers. Which I don't necessarily care, it's just that knowing that I had that many before means I will have to work super hard to get that many back. Another thing is, I have no idea what kind of blog I want to be. I really love photography and the 'hipster' blog like I had before, but I also love my fandoms. I also like fashion and pretty things like that. I know it shouldn't matter but I won't get any followers if I don't stick to one thing. Plus it takes too much effort to have a good blog, I could do it when I wasn't working, but now that I work I won't have the energy to blog.

I deleted my twitter recently because I didn't have anything to tweet about, and I would go a week without tweeting and I would lose followers. The most I ever had was 120 when I deleted I had about 97. Maybe I'll make a new one but for now I'm good without twitter.

At the moment listography, personalitycafe, blogger, and of course facebook and youtube work for me.

I'll never understand

Why people stop talking. I don't mean like they got into a fight and they stop talking, because that makes sense. I mean just randomly.

I have a friend who I thought I was close with but she randomly stopped talking to me. I don't really understand what happened because we never fought, she just stopped replying. I don't want to jump to conclusions and assume she hates my guts but sometimes that's how it feels.
I just really needed to get that off my chest.
Carry on.

Childlike excitement

Apparently something INTPs have is childlike excitement and I definitely agree that I have it. I rarely get excited for things because nothing excites me, simple as that but I get so excited this time of the year. It's like once September starts, I gradually become more and more excited. For one thing, the weather is cooling off, the neighborhood brats are going back to school, and good TV shows come back on. Plus pumpkin things are coming back which can only mean one thing, Halloween! At least, when I think of  pumpkins I think Halloween. Don't judge me.
October has always been my favorite month, I'm not 100% sure of the reason, but I'm sure Halloween has a lot to do with it. I just October so much, the weather is perfect, the leaves are so pretty, the anticipation for the Holiday season is starting, and of course as I have mentioned 574574854 times so far, Halloween is in October. I remember being in 6th grade and I was reading the Halloween Babysitters Club book and watching my friends' rabbit while she ran errands with her mom, and I remember sitting on the couch and getting so excited for Halloween, and for some reason every time I breathed in I just felt the fall air. Which I know doesn't make any sense, but I swear I can just feel the fall and I get so excited.

Of course this Halloween, was ruined by dis bitch named Sandy but I guess that's okay because I was sick anyways.

For a few weeks now I have been fighting off the urge to put up my little pink Christmas tree in my room and the only reason I didn't put it up was because it was still October and I didn't want to seem obnoxious. I know no one would see it besides my mom and brother but I still felt obnoxious. My best friend surprised me last night with a phone call and that made me happy, we eventually started talking about the Holiday's and she said, "You know what? Who cares if your family thinks it's obnoxious to put up your Christmas tree in November, it's not like it's September besides, if I makes you happy, do it!" So I put it up today and I'm obviously very happy about it.

Sorry about the horrible quality, I used the webcam on my laptop. Basically I put up the little green balls, Power Puff Girls ornaments, and really little Spongebob ornaments. They're the only really small ones I have, so hush. :p

I'm not one to care about my birthday, but for some reason once September comes around I think, oh geez my birthday is in a few months. Once October starts, the feeling grows stronger. Now that it's November 4th  all I can think about how my birthday is next month (December 9th) and that excites me but annoys me that I keep thinking about it. I started working on a list of things I want for my birthday or even Christmas, and to be honest, most of what I want are DVDs and Lana Del Rey's new CD.



I'm just really excited for Christmas okay? It brings out this childlike excitement that probably annoys people.