Blog, I'm sorry for abandoning you.

I haven't forgotten about you, I just haven't been in the mood to blog.

Let's see, Christmas was last week and of course it went by in a flash. My mom took down the Christmas tree today, well I guess yesterday seeing as it's 12:08. I'm going to take down my tree today, which is something I don't want to do.
So Christmas 2012. Let's see. My brother woke me up around 9:30 because you know, presents. I got so many nice things. My favorite gift was Mario Kart and a steering wheel for the wii, which my brother got me. I got some clothes, this Juicy Couture perfume set that I picked out, some gift cards, and a wristlet from Vera Bradley that I also picked out, and some other things. We went to my grandfather's house like we do every year and we hung out there for a while, my one aunt gave me a bunch of gifts, and I was like hot damn. So I talked to my aunt's partner about movies and we apparently both like old movies, and that's awesome. She got me this purple watch and I was like, how did you know I love purple, and she was like, you like what I like. I think she's an ISTP and that's cool. My aunt is definitely an ENFP, so that's good, I'm not the only intuitive person in my family. Okay so as we were talking, I was like, why are Jewish people always so short? And my aunt's partner was talking about how they only marry other Jewish people and I was like, they should just marry some tall Swedish person and my aunt turned to look at me and was like, "Like Heath Ledger!" And I was almost died because thrhjtjrkthjrkthjq. I was like "Yeah." and she was like, well he's dead." Well no shit Sherlock, but I was like... I'm aware. My mom looked at me and smirked because she knows my feels towards that situation. trhtkjrthrkthjrtkrq I was 54574985734985784394758439% done. So after a while we went to my cousin's house which is literally right up the street from my grandfather's house, and we ate lasagna and cake. Oh I got Lana Del Rey's new CD and two Audrey Hepburn movies, and I think I can die happily now. So obviously Christmas was good.

Also it snowed like twice. IT SNOWED. I LOVE SNOW. I CAN'T EVEN.

I took some of my mom's xanax last night and I slept for a really long time. I felt really calm and as I was falling asleep, I was just relaxed and I didn't think and omg I was happy.
I took more tonight, so I'm pretty calm right now. I want to sleep but I needed to blog first.

Since it's 2013 I think I should make a list of 12 ways I have changed since 2012 started.

1) I found out I was an INTP and while it might not seem like a big deal, it certainly makes me happy because it has changed my life in a really good way. It's explained some things about myself. I don't have any words, it just makes me feel better.

2) I started talking to my dad again, and it's been going really well.

3) I started talking to Samy again, and it's been going really well.

4) I got a job and instead of quitting the first week like I wanted to, I've stuck it out.

5) I deleted my tumblr.

6) I just overall grew up.

7) I experienced a real loss that hurt me immensely. We put our rabbit down in May. She was 9 and a half. She was my best friend. People don't realize how much she meant to me.

8) I finally got some confidence.

9) I stopped caring so much about how people viewed me. Maybe it's because I'm not in school and I don't have to deal with immaturity every day, and the only people I socialize with are my coworkers or the customers, either way, I stopped caring.

10) I realized that growing up I wasn't weird or different, I was just myself and that's okay.

11) I re found my love for My Little Pony.

12) Most importantly, I realized that life is short and that I shouldn't give a shit about what people say, because I know I will go far in life.


omg ignore the cheesy-ness. Plz.

Am I really this silly?

I'm told quite frequently that I'm funny or silly, and lately it's been at work. I don't actively try to be funny because when I am, I'm not. I just say things and people laugh and tell me I'm funny. At work, a few people call me a mini Sharon which makes me laugh. Apparently because I let me Ne out at work too much, I come across as an extrovert, which I'm not obviously.

Also pandora is starting to annoy me. I added other artists I like to my Lana Del Rey station, so now they don't play Lana and that annoys me. -_-

/pointless thread.

Four days until Christmas,

I REPEAT. FOUR DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS! Okay now that we're all aware I would like to make a blog post about stupidity and double standards.Which is synonymous but yeah you get my drift.

The first part has to do with the loud introduction. I work in a grocery store as mostly everyone knows and this week I have been asking the question, "Are you ready for next week?" Usually it's to women who are wearing Christmas pins or something that makes it obvious that they celebrate. 6 times out of 10 they say almost, or getting there and that's good. The other 4 people are like nope, I haven't even started. Like wot?



Christmas is next week, and you haven't even began your shopping? What are you waiting for, New Years? thrkhtrktjhrjktrhtk

People then would ask me and I would say, "Eh, I got all of the main gifts out of the way, I just have stocking stuff to get, and to wrap it all." Which was mostly true, I did get all of my main gifts, and they are in fact wrapped, but I do need stocking stuff though.

I don't honestly give a flying you know what, but I'm bored at work and I like to make it interesting, so I ask questions and it's fun. People tell me I talk too much at work, and I guess I do, but it's not like I care, I just like passing time. If I stand there and have my normal face which I have been told is quite 'bitchy' and 'rude/angry' then people would get mad and complain. So.... Yeah.

Okay second part of the blog.

So last week Jenna Marbles made a video talking about how she doesn't understand sluts and I was like meh she's expressing her opinion. Was she wrong about things? Yes. Was she also smart about things? Yes. People defend her because she has 545475847594015 followers and everyone loves her. Now last night this other youtuber Trish made a video basically joking around and was like, let's all just have sex and she sort of faked having it. Well not really but she did. I laughed because that's just her personality and she's just Trish. People are blowing everything out of proportion and I'm like wot? She was clearly joking around.

It's a double standard because when a 'pretty girl' makes a mistake and she's 'popular' people forgive her and think oh, she worded it wrong but she meant well. But if someone that's deemed 'not as pretty' makes a mistake people freak out. trjhtkrthjktqjrktkrqe
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It's weird

Lately my number of facebook friends keeps going up and up. I remember when I had like 60 friends and I thought that was a lot. I now have 110 and it just feels weird. Like now these people are 'apart of my life' and I just feel weird. Some how I feel like if I have more facebook friends, that means more and more people will try to add me and I don't want to deal with that. I mean I'm not one to post all of the time, so I don't necessarily fear that I'm going to make an ass out of my self, besides, I'm friends with my mom, cousin, and a few other adults so I really doubt I'm going to post anything inappropriate. I mean I guess I'm just paranoid. It just feels so odd to have over 100 facebook friends.



(I don't really get this meme but it always makes me laugh.)

This post is pointless.





Sthrthrkthrjktq can you tell I'm bored?

Is it really December 16th?

I can't believe how close to Christmas it is, the time has definitely passed by in a flash.

Today was kind of nice.

I woke up and managed down toast and I watched Gilmore Girls. My dad and Ellen came over and we went out to breakfast. We went to the Cracker Barrel and I was definitely freaking out. It was crowded and my face hurt so much. We had a good table, we sat near a giant fire place, and on the table they had this game which requires logic and I sat there playing it until the food arrived. I had two pieces of french toast and it made me sad because they were a bit boring and everyone else had something they really wanted. Oh well.

I wrapped my brothers' gifts and I finished up A Night At the Opera and the fire place was on and the tree was lit up. It felt all homey and stuff.

I spoke with Allison on the phone and she gave me the code for the itunes card, I still have to buy hers. :x

I don't like that tomorrow is my last day off but I guess it means one less day until Christmas?

I almost bought the first season of AHS but I stopped myself because I know I'll be getting money for Christmas, so why waste my money when I'll be getting some soon enough?

Day after surgery

My mouth definitely hurts more today, well my bottom teeth do anyways, I don't know if it's my teeth or my face. I didn't use ice today so it looks swollen and I could have sworn it looked bruised but my face is always red so I have no idea. It's definitely sore to touch though.

The good news is, I can manage more food. I had french toast for breakfast, and toast and tomato soup for lunch, and more potato soup and grilled cheese for dinner. I even managed to eat a cookie that my mom made. She made oatmeal, chocolate chip cookies. I went to wawa today and I bought a 'winter spice latte'. It's basically a pumpkin spice latte but it has nutmeg and other winter-y stuff.

My dad and his girlfriend came over for the weekend. They stopped by for an hour or two and I showed them Super Mario Galaxy which was cool. And I started watching Duck Soup with Ellen.

My dad bought me the Dark Knight Rises and The Casual Vacancy which made me really happy. Ellen got me this stuffed polar bear with these beans inside, and you put him in the microwave and it's a heating pad. I named him Batman. Don't judge me. And she got me these fuzzy socks which you can never have too much of.

I found these really great photo's on this Lana Del Rey fanpage and I need to post them.

You don't realize how much I love Ride, the video its self is beyond amazing, but the lyrics just speak to me. Lana just understands me, and I can't stand when people say she's fake or whatever.

Can you tell I idolize the woman?

i had my wisdom teeth out today.

And honestly, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had the appointment at 9 and I was out at like 10:15.
My mouth hurts but other than that, I'm fine. The lady at the front desk wrote me a note saying I needed out of work for the next 4 days. I AM OKAY WITH THIS.

So Megan posted

on my facebook wall and I am in love with it. It's my new cover photo.

This blog post is dumb, but oh well.