Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I knew facebook was a dumb idea.

I made a facebook in 2007, and deleted it in August of 2010. I made a new one in September of 2011. For the most part, I enjoy facebook because it's a way to talk to people quickly when I need them, see what's going on with people, and keep in touch when old friends. That's all fine and dandy, but lately it just feels weird. In December my friend amount went from around 70 to 100. I was sending out friend requests left and right, I blogged about it before. It feels weird because it brings back my past. My past is a touchy subject and one I don't like to talk about a lot. I was bullied a lot and I like to not think about it. I think my life has been great the last several years, and I plan on keeping it that way.

Basically this all started when I was lurking my brother's facebook. My brother has a lot of friends from my school in New York, and I was going through his friends and I was just in shock. Some of these people really grew up and look so adult-like now and it's astounding. Some look like a bunch of rich twats but what can I say, once a rich twat, always a rich twat. I stumbled upon someone I used to consider a friend. She wasn't a good friend, but she was a friend. My first reaction was to add her and see what's going on with her life, but when I looked at her profile, I noticed that she was friends with a lot of people that bullied me. When I say she wasn't a good friend, it's because she was friends with people that bullied me but she never stood up for me. My mind keeps going back to this day in 2008, and I don't like thinking about that.

I made a thread on Perc and someone said, add her, but block the people you don't want to see. So I did, and guess what? Nothing happened. She accepted the request, and that was that.

It's interesting that I get so worked up over nothing.

Stupid irrational self.

But alas, it still brings back memories of my past and I will always have those memories, but I can move on though. It's taken 10 years to move on.

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